I was tempted just to say ..YOU ARE ALL PERFECT, and leave it at that.
You forget that, and run around trying to be all things to all people, forgetting that you are perfect as you are. There is nothing missing. You may not believe you are perfect, you may think you need this or that, but the truth is WHEN YOU BELIEVE IT YOU WILL SEE IT. You don’t have to be something else to be loved.
When you reside in your own skin you can feel it. You are holding it. You are stronger and braver than you think. If you want to see change, you have to be that change, keeping in mind that you need to change for yourself. There are some situations in which you believe you will never be able to be whole. Change. You don’t need anything. If you make a change part of you, Part of you may be sad, but the other part will say to you – you are OK, you will survive. It is always a process of rediscovery. Covid is making this level of introspection possible. Use the time wisely.
If you get unfortunate or unpleasant things in your life, from my point of view it is because you have attracted these things into your life through your negative thoughts. If anything is the LAW OF ATTRACTION, this is it! You get what you give. If you live negatively, that is what will return boomerang like to you. If the cup is always overflowing for you no matter the circumstances, you have brought that fullness to you. It is not magic – it is how it works.
For myself I wish I was braver, but I am what I am. Someone asked me yesterday… “What is the source of your strength – How come you are so strong”. I hadn’t though of that and was surprised at their perception. I am not strong – I just expect the best….
My age helps. I like being older. Your age is not chronological, more spiritual, more attitudinal. Your attitude determines your life. First know who you are. Find your own narrative, and to do this you have to know your parents. Go looking – you have time. Force yourself to figure out who they were. I was stunned when I investigated my mother (and recently my father and grandfather) and found out who she really was, then I could understand myself better. Like your parents, my parents couldn’t give me what they didn’t have. It wasn’t about me! Lesson to self – It is never too late to start again.
I have a daughter and a son, and they are like me – difficult. I am so proud of what they have achieved in their lives because they never “settled”. They strove to be the best they could be. I have always been “difficult person”, and influenced them at a distance because of the person they thought (think) I am. I hope that they have forgiven me. I like who I am, and I have always been on a mission in my small way to change the world one yogi at a time. I learned early on that this (mostly unconscious) drive came from my mum – she used it in the direction of the material, and I am happiest striving for the spiritual (keeping in mind I still need to pay the rent). I didn’t and don’t need to prove anything to anyone.
Trying to be perfect is a toxic journey. We have to love our shadow. Perfection is not required.
Have a picture in your mind, and on your vision board of what you want – and spend a few seconds many times a day re-inforcing those visions… Vision Boards are a great project for you and your children during covid. They are not a waste of time. Try it and see.
Have a great (cutting and pasting) “Vision Boarding” day.
NAMASTE – JAHNE